long long time ago...

it been quite sometime that i have not update my blog every since i start my working life... basically i daily routine was wake up in the early morning, work, back from work, watch tv then end my day wif sleep... super damp boring life... i don hv enuf time to rest and sleep as much as i want... i miss the feeling of wake up by myself after i get enuf rest not wake up by the stupid alarm... sad case...

mayb cos of this.. i feel that my fren r getting far far away for me.. cos i don even hv enuf time by myself not to say to meet up them. i even back going back to my favorite hometown since 2 months ago... miss all of them back in my sweet hometown... haih... hate the working life... luckily there is someone that enlighten my day when i feel down... hehehe.. that will be my cute cute "rabbit" beside me... thanks a lot..

Working life....

For me Working = wake up early and spend the rest of my day without rest..
Dislike the feeling of wake up early..
Like the feeling of getting money at the end of the month..
Spending like nobody business..
Shop like nobody business..
Eat like nobody business..
There are still years for me to struggle..
This make me think back the old sweet time..
Enjoy with friend..
Hangout with friend..
vocation with friend..
Ponteng together with friend..

Times has gone..
Thing have change..
From a small little girl..
I have turn into a young working adult..

When will all this stop..?

U noe tat i don like it.. u noe tat will hurt me.. u noe tat will make me even more upset.. u noe tat will make me suspect.. y u still keep on doing it..? without the phone u cant survive..? izzit cos the phone is the medium between u n her tat y u need it to communicate wif her..? y u keep hurting me over n over again..? i d try my very best to do watevea i can.. i try to swallow everything d.. i try to keep silent on certain thing d.. i try to bear wif u d.. y u did this to me..? i feel like running out form here.. but i cant.. i feel to going somewhere tat u couldnt found me.. but i cant.. i feel like breaking up this relationship.. but i cant.. u r making my life miserable.. how u wan me to be..? how..? how..? how..? ....................................................................................................................................

What can i do to make u love me...??

something wrong some where.. i cant figure it out.. something keep on hide inside my heart.. i don noe wat it is.. i hope i can be like last time.. but i think its had change.. anything i can do to gain back things that belong to me..? the feeling of losing someone is so near and is hunting me everyday n night.. i dowan this anymore.. i take take this anymore.. i dowan to be an investigator.. but i cant.. i dowan to be story creator.. but i cant.. i dowan to be psychiatrist.. but i cant.. nth help me to make my day but u.. i;m crazy till only when i see u i will feel safe n secure.. y this happen to me..? y keep on pouring all sort of prob..? i thought we can be long lasting n forever.. i thought we can comfort each other thru the whole life.. i thought we can be the perfect couple..? i thought we can be still holding hands when we were old.. Yeah.. all this is what i thought.. wat about u..? do u ever think of tat..? wat i do to make u love me like wat u did last time..? wat can i do..? wat can i do..? who is more important in ur life..? until today i keep on searching for the answer..

Bored...

Haih.. been searching for jobs for almost 2 months d.. but i still hvnt get any feedback form the other parties.. feeling so bored sitting at home and doing nth.. i wan faster get a job and start my career soon.. But important thing is i cant get a job which i don like so i have to carefully look for job n apply asap... Now i even desperate till go to the website and look for job tesco, guardian, watson, carrefour, giant and so.. sad case right..? haih.. Job ar Job.. when u wanna come n find me..

A post for u.. 23th Jan

A lots of thing happen in this wonderful January.. One of my best fren getting married on this date.. i noe her for more than 10years.. we use to do everything together and share every secret together.. time hv change.. we no longer like last time.. we have the least contact, we don meet each other more than months.. we don chat on internet.. BUT.. u're always in my heart.. u're always my best fren ever.. everything might change but the realtionship between u, me and imn is no longer change.. i hope this is the same in ur heart as well.. u will always be the owner of my heart and not the passersby.. i treasure every moment when 3 of us together.. Wish u all the best, miss n love u forever.. Congratulation and enjoy wif ur love one forever n ever..

what a lovely couple.. congrate Li Liang & Hoi Ching

Most of the secondary sch fren.. some i hv not see them since form 5

Sweet sweet bride..

During the dinner..

Late Post for 13th Jan..

What a sad and suffering day for me.. i just hit a jackpot where 4 of us only me that got it.. what a lucky day to me man.. before that i was just lauging at one of my fren who just come out from hospital wif the same sickness as me.. who noe..?? the next 1 is me.. what the.. really CHEH..
people who noe me well, u should noe that in my life time the most scary thing to me is either go for dental or injection.. WOW.. u guy noe that cos of worry that they might give me a drip.. that y i die die also dowan go hospital during the first day i fever.. but after the third day i still suffering and i hv no choice cos mom is nugging non stop.. i thought i just need to suffer once and tat it.. Mana tau.. everyday the nurse come n "suck blood" reason - need to check and monitor whether is positive or negative.. what the ---- .. i'm like everyday donating blood.. everytime i saw the nurse i feel like crying and don noe wat to do.. haih.. no one is by my side when i gone thru all this.. mom is bz fetching sibling and grandparents.. else, dear hv to go back kl cos start class d.. haih.. Thanks Mae yin and her mom for visit, dear ah ma and my uncle aunty.. of cos not forgetting Jo for ur peel fresh which make me cough more.. hahahaha... just kidding la.. enjoy ur care when i suffer.. next time cant find a job can consider be a nurse.. haha..

According to anonymous, when i'm sick i turn into another person which is more ladylike.. hahaha.. never see tat..?? too bad u hv no more chance to see tat.. haha..

Late Post for 10th Jan

Every year before and during my b'day the most happy and touching moment is where i will received plenty of sms n call from my fren wishing me happy b'day.. anyhow this year i received the least.. this really make me down to the earth.. a bit dissappointed but i still full wif hope.. well i ended up just like normal.. i noe tat b'day it doesnt mean must have something very fancy n special but i don noe y this year i expect more than previous year.. well.. it jus end my big day like tat by staying at home and doing nth.. i been quite down after tat day..
Sunday nite.. went out wif fren for some yam cha session.. chit chat and laugh here n there.. enjoy and it make me forget my disappointment.. we went to the new open station 1 near the Komtar Dom.. we talk n talk n talk non stop.. mayb i have not seen her for quite some time..
waiter send a banana boat wif candles to us.. i shock yet happy.. this is the first time i really can feel the surprise tat given.. everytime when ppl wanna give surprise to me, usually i d noe what r they doing.. but this time i really never expect and don noe she is doing this for me.. i feel so touch and speechless on the spot.. my tears running without my concern.. feel like hugging her and kiss her by telling her how much i love her..
That nite really end my day wif a nice full stop..

Jo, i really appreciate what u hv did.. thanks a lots and love u always..

Happy Birthday to myself..

Happy Birthday to me...
Happy Birthday to me...
Happy Birthday to Meeeeeeeeeeeeee...
Happy birthday to me..

*Wish that whatever i hope may fulfill...

another 45 mintues my birthday will over..
honestly this year is not as great as wat i hope for... abit dissappointed...
anyhow.. i still glad tat there friends r always by my side to send their regards to me..
thanks the support and love tat given by all my friends...
i will miss n love you guy always..

2010 resolution..

Today is the 4th day of 2010, avthing still the same for me.. the only thing is tat i'm finally graduate.. kind of missing the feeling of going for class.. ponteng wif fren n went for shopping or lunch.. all this will not going to happen again.. avone say about new year resolution, i do have as well..
- i hope tat i will get a good job so tat it will help more or less to my family financial..
- all my families stay healthy and safe always..
- want to noe fren
- maintain or even strengthen the friendship among all my fren
- stay cool wif my love one
- visit my grandma more
- eat less
- work up more
- slim down soon.. (hopefully before cny)

all the best to avone and hope tat u guy hv lost n lot of fun and stay healthy always..