When will all this stop..?

04 March 2010

U noe tat i don like it.. u noe tat will hurt me.. u noe tat will make me even more upset.. u noe tat will make me suspect.. y u still keep on doing it..? without the phone u cant survive..? izzit cos the phone is the medium between u n her tat y u need it to communicate wif her..? y u keep hurting me over n over again..? i d try my very best to do watevea i can.. i try to swallow everything d.. i try to keep silent on certain thing d.. i try to bear wif u d.. y u did this to me..? i feel like running out form here.. but i cant.. i feel to going somewhere tat u couldnt found me.. but i cant.. i feel like breaking up this relationship.. but i cant.. u r making my life miserable.. how u wan me to be..? how..? how..? how..? ....................................................................................................................................

What can i do to make u love me...??

03 March 2010

something wrong some where.. i cant figure it out.. something keep on hide inside my heart.. i don noe wat it is.. i hope i can be like last time.. but i think its had change.. anything i can do to gain back things that belong to me..? the feeling of losing someone is so near and is hunting me everyday n night.. i dowan this anymore.. i take take this anymore.. i dowan to be an investigator.. but i cant.. i dowan to be story creator.. but i cant.. i dowan to be psychiatrist.. but i cant.. nth help me to make my day but u.. i;m crazy till only when i see u i will feel safe n secure.. y this happen to me..? y keep on pouring all sort of prob..? i thought we can be long lasting n forever.. i thought we can comfort each other thru the whole life.. i thought we can be the perfect couple..? i thought we can be still holding hands when we were old.. Yeah.. all this is what i thought.. wat about u..? do u ever think of tat..? wat i do to make u love me like wat u did last time..? wat can i do..? wat can i do..? who is more important in ur life..? until today i keep on searching for the answer..