An Offence

I don't know when this theory was apply, if you are fat, chubby, bla bla bla.. in short if you are not slim enough mena you d commit an offence.. when i'm fat, it doesn't mean tat i'm lazy.. when i'm fat, it doesn't mean that i dont hv any fashion sense.. when i'm fat, it doesn't mean tat i'm lower class than anyone.. when i'm fat, it doesn't mean tat i'm not allow to buy any new clothes.. Is my body, Is my choice, Is my life..

I never deny tat slim is pretty, can wear any outfit tat suit the trend and age.. not like me always wear aunty clothes which in a big size.. sometime u even feel shy when i asked for another bigger size.. i love to wear spaghetti stripe, evening dress, sleeveless, love to dress up like a trendy teen.. the problem is i'm too fat for it.. cant wear like this is not an offence.. having a fat body is not an offence too..

If you feel shy to walk wif me, u may just go away.. i noe in this world a lot of ppl like to judge a book by it cover.. when u r pretty, i will spend more time to understand u.. talk to u.. hang out wif u and so on.. when u r fat mean sorry they r not going to spend an equal time for u.. Is it mean tat i'm not suppose to live in this world..? Is it mean tat i'm rubbish in this world..?

Maybe some will think tat i'm a bit too sensitive.. To be honest, i'm ok wif all the types of teasing n fool around wif fren and family.. but let me tell me.. during this 6 years time while i fat i get to understand different types of ppl and different views toward fat person.. i have learn a lot from there.. a quote from me, "FAT MEAN YOU'RE NOTHING"

In this 6 years times.. i don dare to go back to a place.. i don dare to meet a group of ppl.. until today, i think i have not meet them for 4 years.. they r suppose to be the ppl who always by my side.. but after a few incidents, i don dare to meet them till now.. even we still keep in touch through phone but we never meet.. i miss them.. but i scare to face all the words and "compliments" by them.. i try my best last year, during a fren wedding dinner.. i'm force to be there, n the consequence is facing all the weird focus from ppl around me.. Shall i be happy when some ppl actually cant recognise me..? i don noe..

Yea, I'm FAT.. So what..?

I'm going to buy clothes in Tall n Big.. So What..?