Please be more considerate n watch out every words tat u say..

Be more considerate.. Be more rational.. Be more carful in every words u say.. with this do u noe how hurtful it can be to someone.. how can u say like tat to me..? if i've got a chance of cos i wanted to go back so much.. but sometimes is not up to me to decide.. i hv to consider every single factor before i do any decision.. money is one, transport is 2, and any other thing tat i need to settle before i can do anything.. even if i calculate back, i think i go back more often then u lo.. u say u r very kindfull to back then to visit the old wat about when u go for vacation n i'm there wif them..? u say my is excuss wat about urs..? my is important and i hv to attend class, exam n assignment.. urs is jus go and hv fun.. pls la.. think back ur self wat is more important...? i never expect u to talk to me nicely n i can tolerate it cos i dowan cause any problem.. but i hv feeling too, can u pls take care of my feeling before u say anything out from our mouth.. u r making my life difficult... if u r really care for me, dont u suppose to help me up more n considerate more..
then u complain tat i din go visit u.. wat about when i say i wanna visit u wat is ur excuss to me..? u also not frequently call me up n ask about me la.. wat do u expect..? u only think tat i should call u up and i should continue call n ask for visit.. hello.. i'm a normal human.. i got feeling also k.. when someone keep on turn u down wat will u feel.. even u r here wif me.. but when i suffer where will u..? even when i first move down u r not the one who help me up also.. yet i hv to ask help from my cousin sis tat i never talk to her for like ages.. wat else can u say about it..? anyhow, u still my elders.. i still hv to respect in no matter in wat way.. but is not deep in my heart.. poker face is also useful no matter in wat situation.. this time i use it again..
conclusion is human is hard to maintain everything in their life.. one grow up and one will fall..

Yeah yeah..

yeah yeah.. new look again for my bloggy.. hahah.. too free n nth to do d.. hope this is nice la.. recently found a few nice nice bg for my blog.. hehe.. when i get sick of this will change again.. always save the best for last.. chaoz..

Is enuf of MIA..

I'm back.. hahaha.. i hv lots n lots of thing to do during this holiday therefore i think i hv also abandon my blog for some times.. muahhaa.. anyhow.. now back to uni time again.. i think i will upload more frequent.. hv a lots of thing to write about but is damp tired n sleepy now.. will update pic n info when i'm free.. chaoz..

不是我想象中的美好

今天如愿的终于考完试了,但为什么心中没有想象中的快乐反而还多加了忧愁.... 为什么?? 为什么??

Can't wait..

Wow.. tomolo is the last paper.. i cant wait for the time to strike at 11am tomolo.. feel like shouting loudly "YEAH!!!"... after tomolo i would not have to force myself to study even thought i'm stuck wif fb.. i no need to wake up early to study before go for exam.. i no need sleep late cos of cant finish studying.. no need to see all Arnhein, Eisenstine, Masuda, who ever dead la.. Phew.. release.. but still have to go thru the last paper 1st.. tomolo seen like the day to start holiday rather than last paper.. fb start over load wif how to celebrate la, planning for holiday la, working la, fucntion la, lots n lots more.. I wish to back penang soon too.. Plently of plan is waiting for me when i back penang... Shoping wif aunt, buffet wif aunt, yamcha session wif fren, drunk wif jo (muahahaha.. u promise me de), catching wif all fren, baking wif sis wif all teh new recipe, my favorite food, n lots n lots n lots more.. wow.. the more i write the more i cant wait for it.. tomolo pls come faster yet don so fast wait is tudy finish 1st.. muahahaha.. chaoz..

Happy bithday to my Dearest..

happy birthday to u.. happy birthday to u.. happy birthday to u.. happy birthday to u.. "wink"

sorry yea.. due to some reason cant realy celebrate wif u.. but never k.. when we back pg.. i make sure i will let u hv an awesome belated birthday.. muacks..

Suddenly...

suddenly clubbing mood was so damp strong.. haih.. but too bad la.. not the suitable time to go clubbing.. every since the first time i club till now it been few years d tat i haven got chance to step into the dance floor.. feel like making myself drink, drank drunk again.. haih.. at sort of teenagers i am.. never enjoy life also.. haih..

Yuhoo..

Haha.. too free d.. tat y change the outlook of my blog.. not really very satisfy but lazy to modify le.. jus let it be la.. when free only change again.. even exam still on going but i'm d like on holiday mood.. don even think of study.. don even think of exam anymore.. left 2 more paper.. hope it over soon.. then i can fully enjoy ur holiday.. Hoi Ching, Chye Imn, Qiu Lin and others were enjoy at Melacca which i don get to go wif them.. haih.. feel wasted.. long itme never go vacation wif them.. haih.. nvm la.. next time la.. chaoz.. sleepy le.. nite nite world..

Bar B Gon

Wow.. it really is my lucky day.. i saw the lovely Bar B Gon on the streets.. Yuhoo.. of cos i won missed the chances to take photo wif thw cute dragon of my favorite food.. wow.. so happy..

A post that specially dedicated to Ms. Woo...

Ms. Woo.. do u enjoy..? when i 1st read this its remind me of u.. hahaha.. look funny right.. next time u may try this way.. i think is quite creative n "think out of a box".. muhahaha.. have fun yea..

Please...

Everytime i heard bad news about u.. I feel so blank in my mind.. I don noe wat to do.. to be exact I cant do anything.. everytime i think back the time we spend together n how u treat me n this 20 years i feel so happy and lucky to live under ur arms.. You make me realise u need to treasure wat ever i hae now.. u make me understand wat is more important in my life.. i feel so guilty on how i treated u last time.. i regret.. i seriously regret.. wat can i do now is to pray hard for u.. i beg god to give me one more chance to treat u well.. give me chances to accompany u.. give me chance to show my thanks thru action.. give me chances to act as a good child.. gives me chances to give watever i can.. Please i beg u.. pls. gives me chances to done my best.. i'm not greedy jus a few years will do.. please..

Make it works..

Better start study right now then rushing like hell one day before EXAM!!!

Doubt...

Life always drive me miserable.. i tend not to lost myself.. but ended up i do.. i hope to be like someone else but i fail.. y life i always so difficult for me..? y cant i be like others can enjoy til the max without worry and doubt.. y cant i like others live in their own world..? i dislike this feeling keep on border me.. i dislike to hv all this to stuck in my mind..

if u r telling me this is wat we should learn when we grow up, then i refuse to grew up.. i prefer to live in my world.. i prefer to do anything without double thought.. i prefer when i was shelter by my family..

all this hv change.. i longer enjoy all this preference of my.. now wat i hv is only 9 ft x 6 ft space for me.. which i feel comfortable n relax.. i can do anything i wan.. this is my little shelter that i feel safe n relief.. no need worry about the thought out there...

i'm stuck.. i'm stuck.. i need my freedom... i need freedom on everything.. from physical to soul..

Out of Scope VS Turtle Plaza

I'm suppose to rush for my assignment which avbody feel headache about it... i think i should just salute to myself tat i still can wonder around n write blog... i think tat is me, if is not last minutes i do not have inspiration to do it.. hahha.. lame excuss.. anyhow, i promise myself tat i gonna finish it up by today.. I MUST.. I MUST..

Before off for assignment share something wif u guy which i love it so much..

Look cute right.. those who interested to invest in TURTLE PLAZA hv to act fast oh.. muahhahaha.. I LOVE IT...

Rudolf Arnheim

I'm suppose to settle my assignment but i ended up blogging here.. I really hate this subject and i don even like all the theory that they have.. I noe nth about this sub neither the scolars of the theory.. Arnheim.. who is him..? i also don noe.. but i'm suppose to write an essay about him theory towards film.. Arnheim, Arnheim, Arnheim.. pls die peacefully and stop torturing people with ur theory..

Shooting trip..

Last thursday me and my frens wen to Raub for some assignmnet shooting.. N i jus reach kl in a min a go.. feel very tired cos not enuf sleep.. will take a nap n will update more on the next post.. Sweet Dream..

RM9.90 for Member..

RM9.90 for member and eat all you can in BBQ plaza.. Wow.. it really attract me a lot.. Since i have 6 hours break in the middle i purposely go back home and go BBQ plaza in Times with terence.. Wow.. this is really not i can expect, they really let you order anything from the Menu expect for those that already ready cook.. i thought they will limit you or add on some charges on drink or only free flow for those cheap food.. WHO KNOWS!!! Drink is FREE and the side dish is free flow.. muahahahaha.. WOW i fully enjoy and i nearly vomit after 2 hours of war.. Anyhow, i feel so satisfied with the promotion..

Of cos we were satisfied, do you know how many plate and total amount we have order for only 2 of us..? We have ordered 1 Family Pork Set which has already cost RM 39.90, 4 plates of Scallop, 4 plates of Prawns, 3 places of Fish Fillet and some i forget d.. N it total only cost me RM22.75 which including taxes.. Wow, isn't this is a super duper good promotion..? I hope there is another promotion like this..

BBq Plaza is always my smartest choice.. muahahaha

Hate it..

Walau.. jus the 1st week of school but the assignment and project r coming in liek nobody business.. this semester is going to be a killing sems.. all the subjects r like super duper hard and focus more on theory.. thw worse part is i hv tv2 this sem.. walau.. really shit man.. for the time being i still cant change my mode from holiday to study.. haih.. sien ar.. Anyhow, i'm gonna make sure i try to work hard on it.. cos i dowan dissappoint my parents, i wan them to feel pround of me, i wan my name is call out when i walk through the stage.. i wan my award from my family.. Since i wan to try hard, so the 1st steps of reaching my goals is to sleep early and wake up early to have a healthy life.. so i'm gonna sleep now.. muahahhahaa... "lame excuss"..

Back in Action..

Finally class start again.. Before this i was so eager to go to class rather than work, and now guess wat..? I started feel boring wake up early in the morning and listen to "bible study" muahhaah.. I know is just the 2nd day of school but too bad girl is always undecisive and full of complaints.. 1st day went to class feel a bit weird and strange.. Looking back all the familiar faces only i realise the last time i saw them was last year.. Everybody look so strange and we seem like a bit "ke kok".. i think is cos we din meet for quite sometime and we hv lost the comman topic to talk about.. hahaha.. nvm i believe that we will come back as like last time which we will talk soft soft laugh loud loud.. muhahahaha...

Reminder

Tonite will be the most awesome night after so many years.. Tonite it brings back all the memories that we have before.. I miss the feeling when we will stil study.. We chat together, play together, teasing each other, gossip, fool around and so on.. Tonite i get back the same feelings.. Since 4 years ago i never meet u guy till today, but in my heart there is always have a place for this gang of friends.. Even thought a few of friends are far away from us, but we will never forget you and will always keep u in our heart..

The first thing we enter the cafe and the table is not bz ordering food, but is bz taking a lot of picture..

While looking at the menu also takes picture.. muahahha..

The seafood pasta is so damp nice.. i love it so much..

While eating also wanna take pic..

My most "stupid" and bising fren..

Group picture with the b'day boy.. Happy b'day to u.. wish u all the best in UK..

Frens are always frens.. Since primary school till now we has d bond with it for more than 10 years.. Eventhough i seem like MIA for few years but u guy still keep the little friendshp inside uy heart,, i miss the moment where we spends toegther last time.. and i hope tonite do bring back all the sweet memories.. Tonite has become a history and i do hope that there is still lot more coming in teh future.. I treasure the friendship and love from u guy.. Love you guy.. Chaos..

Faith...

Is tat really my problem..? y avbody start saying is my problem..? all the while i do think tat i'm in the right side.. now ths situation make me think tat am i doing the wrong thing..? even mom also say is my problem.. everything turn out to be this way is cos of me.. i try wat i can but thing still turn out this way..

everyone is asking me not to be so bad temper and try to be passion.. the problem is i try and i cant do it.. i'm very blur and confuse now.. don noe wat can i do.. since in others ppl eyes what is do is always wrong wrong thing..

Do you guy believe, between human there is always a small little tiny thing which we cant see is connecting one person to another.. this called faith.. if you r not connecting to it means...

Enjoy Myself..

Few weeks back, after i finish my training i finally get my time to really enjoy my time with my love one.. Sorry for create troubles for u during this 14 weeks.. anyhow, i appreaciate wat u have done for me..

Say Cheese..

Haiyo, u also fat fat d lo.. muahahah..

So Cute la u..

Play time lo..

Look like chimpanzee.. i mean u not me.. muahahah

I'm Glad...

I received a lot of comment for the previous post.. i'm glad tat all my fren r so supportive and they r by my side when there is anything happen... thanks guy.. u guy r really rocks man.. i love u guy too.. With all teh support and care i will make sure i try my best on it.. frenship used to be quite a strange word to me since 5 years ago.. n guess wat.. now the this word is coming back to me again..

After the previous post.. i do make myself motivate and dertemine that i must slim down before sch start.. i hope tat i can make it.. But it seem like my own way doesn;t works.. its d 2 weeks, but it still the same and teh worse is it doesnt go up bt go up... wat wrong is it..? really very sick of it.. this is the very first time i hv a strong motovation to slim down but the result doesnt turn out like wat i expect.. how..? wat else can i do..? feel so dissappointed wif it.. haih.. Anyhow, i will still keep it up and i hope miracle will happen.. chaos..

An Offence

I don't know when this theory was apply, if you are fat, chubby, bla bla bla.. in short if you are not slim enough mena you d commit an offence.. when i'm fat, it doesn't mean tat i'm lazy.. when i'm fat, it doesn't mean that i dont hv any fashion sense.. when i'm fat, it doesn't mean tat i'm lower class than anyone.. when i'm fat, it doesn't mean tat i'm not allow to buy any new clothes.. Is my body, Is my choice, Is my life..

I never deny tat slim is pretty, can wear any outfit tat suit the trend and age.. not like me always wear aunty clothes which in a big size.. sometime u even feel shy when i asked for another bigger size.. i love to wear spaghetti stripe, evening dress, sleeveless, love to dress up like a trendy teen.. the problem is i'm too fat for it.. cant wear like this is not an offence.. having a fat body is not an offence too..

If you feel shy to walk wif me, u may just go away.. i noe in this world a lot of ppl like to judge a book by it cover.. when u r pretty, i will spend more time to understand u.. talk to u.. hang out wif u and so on.. when u r fat mean sorry they r not going to spend an equal time for u.. Is it mean tat i'm not suppose to live in this world..? Is it mean tat i'm rubbish in this world..?

Maybe some will think tat i'm a bit too sensitive.. To be honest, i'm ok wif all the types of teasing n fool around wif fren and family.. but let me tell me.. during this 6 years time while i fat i get to understand different types of ppl and different views toward fat person.. i have learn a lot from there.. a quote from me, "FAT MEAN YOU'RE NOTHING"

In this 6 years times.. i don dare to go back to a place.. i don dare to meet a group of ppl.. until today, i think i have not meet them for 4 years.. they r suppose to be the ppl who always by my side.. but after a few incidents, i don dare to meet them till now.. even we still keep in touch through phone but we never meet.. i miss them.. but i scare to face all the words and "compliments" by them.. i try my best last year, during a fren wedding dinner.. i'm force to be there, n the consequence is facing all the weird focus from ppl around me.. Shall i be happy when some ppl actually cant recognise me..? i don noe..

Yea, I'm FAT.. So what..?

I'm going to buy clothes in Tall n Big.. So What..?

Boring till Crazy....

The word of holiday may be very attractive to all human being but it only apply when we have thing to do during the holiday.. like me.. avday sit at home and my daily routine is sleep, eat, play comp, sleep, eat, play comp then sleep.. i cant really stand it anymore.. i need some enlightenment in my life.. i need some program or activity in my life.. grh.. chaos..

Stool's Cookies...

Everybody sure wondering y called Stool's cookies.. hahahaa.. tat is cos today my English teacher taught a new word.. Do u guy know tat stool = shit..? haha, nvm i also jus knew it.. So next time don scold ppl shit u.. scold ppl stool u.. haha, the person might not know wat u talking about.. but u can lmao to urself.. muahahahhaa... so jahat la me teach ppl scolding bad thing.. all is taught by RUTH.. yes is R U T H.. faster go scold her k.. muahahaha..

p/s: nana is ur favorite... like it ma..? does it look like wat u always draw..? muahaaha

Does the picture look nice..? cos is my stool's cookies.. it not only look nice but taste nice as well... erm.. YUMMY... hahaha... move more coming out soon cos we r going to have a lot of baking n cooking few week while we hving holiday.. hahaha.. See la.. how to slim down.. haih.. i think i hv to list it under the mission impossible..

Irresistable....

Food is always the thing that make me lost my stand and dignity.. sob sob.. since last week till today i been eating like nobody business.. like tat how to slim down ar.. haih, during 1 week time i visit BBQ plaza twice, visit hometown steamboat once, visit sunwong once and Mr. Loh restaurant a few times.. muahahhaha.. everytime after i filled my stomach i feel like nth is this world can be so wonderful ever.. muahahaha.. i noe it seem a bit exaggerate but i really feel this way especially i have craving for tat food for some time.. ok i admit i'm human who live to eat, not eat to live.. i don noe when i started this habit which like to eat, but i noe a few fren of my have got the influrence from me and start blaming me.. muahhahaha.. too bad, as for a girl like me shopping is really not my type, so ppl out there dont invite me for a shopping spree but invite me for a eating spree.. hahahaha.. BIG FAT PIG IS COMING SOON.. chaos..

Long Lost Memories...

Here come back again my memories... when there are Ruth and Joanne, it sure will have Bar BQ Plaza come into picture... this will be the best place for me and Ruth to chit-chat to know more about each other during this few months... As me and Ruth have less contact since our training start.. so.. this is the time where we get back on what happen on each other.. without any hesitate we have d plan for the next outing which is makan again.. muahahhaa.. 2 of us memang love to makan and the best part is.. we share the same taste bud... hahaha..

For those who don noe how me n Ruth get to become close fren...? here goes the story... there is "weird" girl suddenly sit beside me and said:"hai, my name is Ruth".. i was like... o..o..o..k... then we start have our "weird" conversation... muahhahaa.. after that, both of us become reli super close which i hv to see her avday when i go to uni and back from uni.. haih.. besides, she avday also will nag nag nag like my mom at home... such as.. study la exam coming, faster do the assignment la, sleep early la, and now she start to nag me on the final report for internship.. haih.. kesian me.. hahaha.. but luckily got her avday nag me.. like my mobile alarm clock... ops.. reveal too much of info i better go write report.. if not later kena nag again.. chaos..

Dead fish...

Walau.. human are always confuse and contradict with what they want and need.. before my intern end, everyday hoping for it to finish faster so that i can fully have my rest and enjoy my day.. but now, is only 2nd day of my holiday i start to feel bored.. and guess what, averagely i will sleep 3 times per day... sooner or later sure will become piggy d.. haih.. now i understand the feeling of desperate, lonely and miserable when a person have nth to do but stay just at home from day till nite.. haih... but never mind, this feeling won last long cos i'm going out tomolo.. muahaha.. my friend wanna celebrate my b...e...l...a...t...e...d... b'day.. walau... my b'day has past like ages ago now only wanna celebrate.. who ask me to hv a weird friend.. haih.. ok la.. will blog more tomolo k.. chaos...

Better late than never...

I know... it seem like i'm a bit outdated with the trend of blogging.... people out there already blog for few years and i just wanna start to blog about it.. by the way, i always believe that "better late than never".. i don't know what makes me feel like creating a new blog for myself, may be just wanna crap non stop and throwing my saliva over my computer screen.. anyhow, wish that this blog can be long lasting... muahhahaa.. enjoy ..